There are a few things – THINGS – that I absolutely love. I will leave aside the other, non-material things like music, family, beauty etc. and write about the material ones. And why I love them. Ultimately, the reason is always the same: they help me feel good, and feeling good is the best there is.
I think it’s the only reason we want anything: to feel good. We want people to love us – to feel good. We want houses, cars, clothes, fame, money, entertainment, pets – to feel good. We dance – to feel good. We just want to feel good. Abraham always say that our natural state is one of happiness and well-being. And we either allow it, or disallow it. Now, if we were perfect, we could just feel good no matter where we are and what we have. But circumstances DO help. Ok, on to the things.
My bed: I wrote about it before. It was expensive for me, but so worth it. It is huge, high, soft and insanely comfortable. It gives me a feeling of luxury, with its cool, smooth sheet, my two fat fluffy down pillows and beautiful pillowcases with tiny, pale golden embroidered leaves. A new down duvet is still on my wish list, with a pale golden duvet cover.
My bedroom slippers: After years of either ugly slippers or cold feet, I found a pair of pretty, warm slippers last Saturday. They are off-white ballet flats with cable-knit fabric, lined with lambskin. And they have the most adorable pompom on the toe. They were rather expensive as well. Let’s hope they last a few winters. They make me feel warm, obviously, and sophisticated. There is nothing worse than feeling ugly and dumpy at home, and with slippers on, this has always been the case before.
My Bourgie lamp: It is a clear acrylic lamp, in baroque (I think) shape. And it’s big. And it’s a design classic, by Ferruccio Laviani. I don’t know much about design, but this lamp is simply beautiful. And cool. Just looking at it makes my heart beat faster, like looking at a dancer with gorgeous lines. The modern material with the old-fashioned shapes makes it very interesting. The light is lovely, and being see-through, it doesn’t look too huge and domineering. It gives me a feeling of sophistication and luxury.
My pearl bracelet: I got it for myself this summer during the week-long summer course. It is elastic, so no fumbling is needed when putting it on. And it wasn’t expensive at all. I love the slightly untidy profusion of pearls, their beautiful lustre and the silver charm (a four-leaf clover). It has become a symbol of happiness, summer and sunshine glinting on water, music and dancing and self-expression. When I feel down and put it on, it comforts me somehow. It reminds me to be good to myself.
My computer: The first computer I chose and bought for myself. A Macbook Pro. What I love about it is its beauty combined with functionality. Beautiful things are good, useful things are good, but the best things are both, and Apple has many such products. Which brings me to the next thing:
My iPod: A very small one, just for music. I would have liked a pale golden one, but it is orange and that is fine, too. It has all my music on it. A tiny little treasure box. I had it inscribed with my initials and a small part of a quote from a poem by T.S. Eliot:
For most of us, there is only the unattended
Moment, the moment in and out of time,
The distraction fit, lost in a shaft of sunlight,
The wild thyme unseen, or the winter lightning
Or the waterfall, or music heard so deeply
That it is not heard at all, but you are the music
While the music lasts.
There was only room for: ‘you are the music’, but that is the essential thing, the thing I want to remember every time I use it. I always try to inspire myself with music before ballet class these days, to awaken this passion and then take it with me to the studio.
My perfumes: I started late, two years ago, when I fell in love with Chanel No. 19. I wore that scent too often and couldn’t smell the nice notes anymore, only something sour, so I went looking for other scents. My favourite is still Scherrer’s Jean Louis Scherrer, my mother’s perfume, which is discontinued. This summer I got L’Eau de Chloé, very light and fresh, a summer scent. And Eaudemoiselle by Givenchy, which I bought blindly. It’s very nice, but has a harsh undertone sometimes. I can only wear it when I feel a little brave. But my staple at the moment is J’adore Eau de toilette by Dior. I like it a lot, it is elegant and light, but nothing too exceptional. Sometimes, I wear perfume just for myself, to bed maybe. Just to please my nose. And I can’t discern notes or anything. All I know is whether I like a scent or not. What I still want to try: Jicky by Guerlain. Apparently, it’s also Aurélie Dupont’s scent.